Fractal Faith: How Jesus, Fractal Mastery, and the Anatomy of the Soul Converge in Our Healing | 04.10.2025
There are moments when Spirit moves so clearly through us that we pierce the veil, and we are overcome by the living presence of Jesus—alive, personal, and inviting. This week, as I sat in stillness preparing for my guest appearance on the Mindshift Experiment podcast, I returned to a channeled moment I once had—where Jesus lovingly looked upon me and said: "Feed my sheep."
That calling has stayed with me, and it has evolved as I’ve walked with Him—not just as the Shepherd, but as a sacred integrator of the many healing modalities and understandings He’s illuminated in my path.
So if you’ve arrived here after listening to the podcast, welcome. Here is a gift for you: a model of convergence that may help you make sense of the things stirring in your soul.
The Convergence: Fractals, the Soul, and Jesus
1. Jesus and Fractal Mastery
Fractals are repeating patterns found throughout nature—from trees to galaxies to our very DNA. They represent wholeness, pattern, and order. Mystics, mathematicians, and seekers have all been drawn to them. Yeshuani has been a great source of this understanding for me, so I encourage those who are intrigued to explore her written works.
But here's the incredible truth:
Jesus is the Original Pattern.
"He is the image of the invisible God... in Him all things hold together." // Colossians 1:15–17
When we experience healing, surrender, or re-integration of fragmented parts of ourselves, we are returning to this divine pattern. Every act of restoration is a fractal echo of His resurrection. Every healed wound in you reflects Christ’s resurrection. Every moment you surrender ego ripples outward like a fractal—into your home, into your family, into the collective. You’re not just healing for yourself—you’re aligning with the blueprint.
2. Curt Thompson and the Anatomy of the Soul
Curt Thompson, a Christian psychiatrist, brings profound language to the inner terrain of healing. If you know me personally, chances are you’ve heard me recommend his book The Anatomy of the Soul countless times. Add it to your cart; you won’t be disappointed. His work reminds us that:
The soul is shaped by attachment, story, and presence
Healing happens through being known, narrative repair, and safe relationships
We need Jesus not only as Savior but as a felt, secure attachment figure who enters our trauma and rewrites the story from within
Through this lens, Jesus isn’t abstract. He is the great Re-Author of our story, bringing coherence to what was once fragmented.
3. Ego, Sin, and Surrender
The Bible doesn’t use the word “ego” directly, but it speaks to what we mean when we use that term—the self apart from God, the part of us that seeks its own glory, safety, or control. Think of it as the false self—the self built on fear, performance, and separation from the Father.
“For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for Me will find it.” // Matthew 16:25
The “life” Jesus speaks of here is the psyche (Greek: psuchē), the self. The ego. Jesus is saying: let that constructed self go. Lay down the self that performs, protects, and postures—and you’ll find your true life (read as: calling, essence, purpose) in Me. Like most of you, I’ve wrestled with performance, achievement and the inner child’s hunger for approval and incessant validation (thank you for this neural adaptation, my ADD brain). But Jesus gently showed me:
You are not disqualified by your ego. You are being sanctified by surrendering it.
Sin fractures the pattern. Ego holds tightly to performance. But Jesus doesn’t shame us—He re-parents us. He enters the pattern, meets us in our striving, and brings rest. True freedom is the loss of ego’s throne and the rise of His gentle lordship in our lives.
Now here’s where it gets even more nuanced: the ego isn’t evil in and of itself. It’s just not meant to lead. Sin, in this context, is not merely wrong behavior as many doctrines have led us to believe—it’s disconnection from God. It’s when the ego exalts itself, tries to be the savior, or centers itself instead of Christ.
“They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator…” // Romans 1:25
The ego is a “created thing.” When we serve it—its need for applause, control, perfection—we end up walking in the lie that we are responsible for the fruit. What we feed, grows. And when our ego is fed, the chasm of separation widens.
But God doesn’t condemn us for this. He eagerly awaits our return, with arms outstretched:
“Therefore there is now no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh (read: psyche, ego, false self), but after the Spirit.” // Romans 8:1
The path of transformation is one of continual surrender—not shame. The inner child in you who learned to perform for affection can now be re-parented by Jesus Himself. You are already worthy. You are already enough. There is nothing you can do to either earn or conversely, lose, his merciful love for you.
What This Means for You
If you’re someone exploring trauma healing, mysticism, neuroscience, or Christian spirituality, and trying to weave them into a coherent tapestry, you may have felt torn between worlds. But I want you to know:
These are not opposing forces. They are rays of the same Light.
Your nervous system’s healing is sacred.
Your longing for pattern and coherence is divine.
Your inner child’s tears are not weaknesses; they are invitations.
Jesus is not threatened by your curiosity. He is the Truth behind every mystery.
Visualizing the Model
To help root this in your mind and heart, I had ChatGPT create a visual model (see cover image ). Though it may seem a little cheesy, it represents how these different strands—fractal mastery, soul anatomy, and Christ consciousness—all converge around the cross. The pattern is restored in Him. Your healing is not just personal—it is cosmic. This is fractal mastery through the cross. It’s not a bypass or just "good vibes." It’s death and resurrection in pattern—again and again, in mercy.
Final Blessing
To all who read these words:
You are a part of a sacred, living pattern, woven together in Christ.
There is no striving needed, only abiding in His love. You are not alone in your healing—Jesus is with you, whispering your name, inviting you home. May you find rest in His presence, and may every part of your soul that feels broken or distant be met by His gentle touch.
He sees you, He loves you, and in Him, you are whole.
Let this truth ripple outward—through your story, through your relationships, through your healing.
As you surrender, remember: The pattern is being restored, not just for you, but for all of us, together in Him.
-In love + light,
April
